Experience tells me that very few people ever see this journal thing, and even fewer people care about what I post here. For this reason I have been posting more often to my "thing" ([link]) much more frequently. Of course, not many people read THAT either, but at least my efforts haven't been split between two creativity sharing sites.

That is why I am closing up shop here. This is not to say that I will be shutting my account down or even pulling any of my work down. Here are the details:

1. I may or may not post art to deviantART in the future. Most of my creative endeavors will be available to see at my WordPress site, but I may post them here for hosting. This community, unfortunately, has been either going to sleep or sinking into the gutter for the last year and change, and I am tired of having such a long list of artists that I watch who do nothing. SO...

2. I am keeping the list of "friends" that I have been watching here, but I am no longer going to receive notifications of new deviations from anyone I don't really know in real life with a few exceptions - a certain number deviants who have been very kind to me and I shall continue to offer critiques on their work when needed or requested.

3. I will continue to check DA for updates nearly every day, but this will no longer occupy more than five minutes of my time since my watch list won't be producing new deviations quite as often (I guess I was averaging about three new deviations a day, with a watch list of over seventy deviants).

Since I put some small effort into designing the header and choosing the look at my site, I decided to take and stitch some screen shots and post them here ([link]). I did rush the design a little, but I am fairly happy with it.

Finally, a thought on a quote I will one day feature on my quote site ([link]). It is in regards to writing specifically, but could be said of any creative endeavor:

"Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self."
Cyril Connolly

Nothing I do is for you, it's all for me. Even though I tend to want critiques and thoughts from the public, the only reasons I do anything that I do all have to do with me and me alone.

Alright, let's go for brief here. First off, I want to know how many people actually lay eyes on what I write in my journal. So, if you're reading this, it is now your duty to leave a comment. Thanks.

Secondly, I would be much obliged if you would do me the additional favor of stopping by my new "thing." I don't much like the word the rest of the world uses for it, so I call it a "thing." Anyhow, it can be found here at [link]

If you are kind enough to click through and visit my new "thing" please read at least one of the items you find there completely and leave me some feedback or even just a "hello." I prefer feedback and constructive criticism, but if you don't feel like helping me out, just let me know you stopped by with a comment.

Thanks for your help. If you don't feel like stopping by to visit my "thing," let me know when you post your obligatory comment below!

With love,
Brian

So, yesterday morning I had this strange little idea for a short story, and in the evening I wrote it all out on my new little portable word-processing dedicated laptop, and posted it as, "Hesitation." In fact, I posted it in four different places, and have yet to get any comments. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I suppose, at least here, I could see how many views it's had... So far, I'm guessing not a lot.

OK, so I just checked, and it said I've had a total of one view since it was posted and one today (I'm guessing that one view came from me). Oh well. Perhaps as my writing gets better I'll really start looking for ways to do some serious PR and promotion of my stuff. As for right now, I'm proud of what I write, but I know it can be a lot better. That's why I need to practice.

Well, this had been fun. I've got a sore throat and nothing sounds better than falling asleep right now. I'll catch you all later (I say "you all," but I consider myself lucky if one person reads this).

I need a break.

But enough about me. I want to put some art up for anyone who cares to notice. I've been (kind of) working on a few written pieces, but they're either hand written (for now) or typed out on a stupid electronic word processor I got (hoping I'd be able to transfer files to my computer via its built-in disk drive) only to find that it doesn't format its disks to be compatible with my computer. So... I can't just transfer anything I write on it. That means I either have to be awesome and re-write everything I type on it, just type on a computer (they sell all kinds of cheep laptops now) or do something else to solve the problem (which I don't feel like doing).

What does all of this blabbering mean? It means I'll probably be picking my programming projects back up soon, or I might start doing more digital art (3d, 2d or something like that), or maybe I'll start writing music again, or I could work on the web page projects I've been meaning to get around to, or I could work on Flash and see if anything comes out of it, or I could just do nothing at all and actually read the awesome book I started reading last month.

The ULTIMATE question remains though - will anyone really CARE what I end up doing? Will anyone care ABOUT what I do? Will anyone even NOTICE? These questions and more to be answered in the coming months. I hope you're just riveted, I know I am.

Better safe than sorry!